life aint always beautiful
sometimes its just plain hard
life can knock you down
it can break your heart

life aint always beautiful
you think your on your way
and its just a dead end road
at the end of the day

but the struggles make you stronger
and the changes make you wise
and happiness has its own way
of takin its sweet time

no life aint always beautiful
tears will fall sometimes
life aint always beautiful
but its a beautiful ride

life aint always beautiful
some days I miss your smile
i get tired of walkin all these lonely miles

and i wish for just one minute
i could see your pretty face
guess i can dream
but life dont work that way

my heaven .... where are you ?? i cant wait <33

 ill be the greatest fan of your life

 i always loved you but it was never enough

xO_ H e l l o  G o r g e o u s <33

 .A.b.O.u.T. .y.O.u.
Nicknames: tiff, T, mingo, lil mingo
Birthdate: january 28th
So that means your how old: 16
Zodiac sign: aquarius
Height: 5'4
Eye color: brown
Hair color: brunette yo
Righty or lefty: lefty fo sho haha
Pets: 3 dogs

 .F.a.V.o.R.i.T.e.S.  
Number: 28
TV station: GAC or MTV
Person to talk to online?: callie , kush , peter
Person to talk to on the phone?: callie and peter
Food: pizza
Drink: root beer / mountain dew
Alcoholic drink: red bull // vodka
Flower: roses or plumerias
Word/Phrase: fuck haha
Smell/Scent: cool waters
Hangout: someones house
Summer vacation: arizona
Pick-up line: i lost my teddybear .. can i sleep with you ( classic )

 .l.O.v.E. .L.i.F.e.  
First crush: george
Single or attached?: currently single ( by choice ) but i prefer being attached
Ever been in love?: HAH .. yeeeeaap
Do you believe in love at first sight?: not really
Do you believe in "the one?": yeah def

 .A.r.E. .y.O.u. .A./.a.N.  
Wuss: not at all
Druggie: fuck noo
Daydreamer: mehh.. sometimes
Freak: haha sureee
Dork: haha yess
Bitch/Asshole: ohhh yah
Brat: i get called it
Sarcastic: its like my lifestyle
Goody-goody: hah sometimes
Angel: when i want to be
Devil: when i want to be
Shy: hell fucking no
Talkative: ohh yah
Adventurous: id say so

 .w.O.r.d. .A.s.S.o.C.i.A.t.I.o.N.  
Rubber gloves: wtf?... honestly
Rocks: meth? hahaha (inside joke)
Green: grass 
Wet: haha .. not even gonna go there
Cry: baby
Peanut: butter
Hay: horse
Hot: guys
Cold: shake
Steamy: sauna
Fast: lane
Stick shift: car
Rain: drops
Bite: me
Suck: him HAHA
Limp: dick
Needle: nose
Honey: bee
High heels: shoes
Seal: water
Napkin: food?
M.D.: doctor
Red: rose

 .R.a.N.d.O.m. .Q.u.E.s.T.i.O.n.S.  
Last person you talked to on the phone: nelly
Last song you listened to : last day of my life -- phil vassar
Thing you ate: chinese food
Whats the weather like?: fucking cold... -15
Whats right next to you?: my blanket?
How do you eat an Oreo?: take off one end.. eat the one with the frosting
Contacts or glasses?: neither
Shy to make the first move?:  nope.. i just expect the guy to

 .C.u.R.r.E.n.T.  
what are you wearing right now?: pj's
current mood: bored
current music: country x33 obviously..
current taste: strawberry
current hair: pony tail
current smell: sheer freesia
current game: not playing one
current thing I ought to be doing: hanging out with my friends
current windows open: none.. its fucking cold
current desktop picture: desert sunset
current cds in stereo: probably 2pac and brooks and dunn ( haha whata combo )
current worry: how to lose weight
current crush: cant tell
current favorite celeb: vince vaughen or rachel mcadams

 .t.O.d.A.y. .I. .h.A.v.E.  
Smiled?: forsureeee
Laughed?: haha couldnt live without it
Cried?: nopee
Bought something?: sadly.. no
Danced?: nope (suprisingly)
Were sarcastic?: obviously
Talked to an ex?: nopee
Watched your favorite movie?: one of them .. blade trinity

 .T.h.E. .L.a.S.t.  
Last book you read : the crystal cave... for school
Last movie you saw: band camp.. with peter
Last song you heard: if i lost it -- kenny chesney
Last thing you had to drink: water
Last thing you ate : candy

 .d.O. .i.  
Smoke?:  meh...
Do drugs?:  nopee
Have sex?:  hell no (by choice)
Sleep with stuffed animals?: hah sometimess
Live for the moment?: HELL FUCKING YESS
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: hmm maybe?
Play an instrument?: im straight.. thanks
Believe there is life on other planets?: who just thinks about these things? honestly..
Remember your first love?: yepp.. still in contact
Read the newspaper?: sometimes.. if its interesting
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: not that i know of
Believe in miracles?: yess.. i guess
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yess i do
Consider yourself tolerant of others? hah not really
Consider love a mistake?: not at all
Like the taste of alcohol?: haha yess
Have a favorite candy?: i just all around love candy
Believe in astrology?: mehh idk
in magic?: not really
Believe in god?: Yepppppppp
Go to church?: not anymore
Have any pets: 3 dogs
Do well in school?: pretty well
Go to or plan to go to college?: ASU BABY
Wear hats?: no..? not unless im getting "dressed up"
Have any piercings?: 9 actually
Have any tattoos?: not yett
Hate yourself?: no
Have an obsession?: yeppp .. a couple
Have a secret crush?: haha maybeee
Do they know yet?: yes
Collect anything? thats kinna weirdd.. maybe when i like 5
Wish on stars?: yeah suree
Like your handwriting?: naww
Have any bad habits?: cracking like every bone
Care about looks?: YAHHH
Believe in witches?: random and stupid question

.. pEeEaAaCcCiInNnn OoUuUtTt yO x33

im gonna clean the house
im gonna fix the fence
in my final hours
im gonna tie up these loose ends
i wont leave a note
for anyone to find
tomorrow they will know what ive done tonight

the drastic steps ive taken
for a night to desperation
i knew no one will miss me so what the hell
i followed the light and drank too much
hurt everyone i ever touched
just how much i hurt you
its hard to tell
this is not some cry for help
its goodbye i wish you well
because i love you
im gonna kill myself

now whos that
in my easy chair
now wait a minute
thats the old me sitting there
and i thank God
the devil in me died
cause i stand before you now
a man changed and alive

the drastic steps ive taken
for a night of desperation
were just an act of desperation
i knew no one will miss me so what the hell
i followed the light and drank too much
i faught and lied and drank too much
hurt everyone i ever touched
just how much i hurt you
its hard to tell
this is not some cry for help
its good bye i wish you well
because i love you
i had to kill myself

 series one: - you -
Birth Time: like 3:30 in the morning
Last Place You Traveled: arizona ( best place in the world )
Eye Color: brown .. sadly
Nail Color: currently hot pink
Height: like 5'4
Zodiac Sign: aquarius

 series two: - describe -
Your Heritage: white and native american
The Shoes You Wore Today: didnt wear any
Your Hair: long dark with highlights
Your Weakness: love
Your Fears: losing someone i love
Your Perfect Pizza: pepperoni
One Thing Youd Like To Achieve: lose weight

 series three: - what is -
Your Most Overused Phrase On Aim: haha
Your Thoughts First Waking Up: 5 more minutes
Your Current Worry: what im going to wear tomorrow
Your Plans Tomorrow: school and no then no idea
Your Best Physical Feature: you tell me..

 series four: - you prefer -
Sunrise Or Sunset: both
Gore Or Horror: horror
Eastside Or Westside: central
Stripes Or Polka Dots: neither
Money Or Fame: both
Planes Or Trains: planes
Metal Or Hardcore: neither..
Boxers Or Briefs: boxers
Pools Or Hot Tubs: both

 series five: - do you -
Cuss: too fucking much
Do You Think Youve Been In Love: yes i have
Want To Get Married: YESS very much
Type w/ Your Fingers On The Right Keys: i guess
Like To Take Baths: love them
Get Motion Sickness: yeah sadly
Like Talking On The Phone: depends on with who but yes
Like Thunderstorms: if im inside cuddled up
Play An Instrument: got fag?
Workout: yes i do
Like Reading: sometimes

 series six: - favorites -
Kind Of Fruit: lemons
Music To Fall Asleep To: country x33
Time Of The Day: night time
Feature In The Opposite Sex: EYES
Car: escalade // viper
Number: 28
Thing To Do Right Before Bed: phone or movie
Thing To Say When Your Mad: fuck this shit..
Horror Movie: too many.. i love them
Color: BLUE of course

 series seven: - future -
Age You Hope To Be Married: like 23
Age You Want To Find "THE ONE":  right now..
Numbers & Names Of Children: 2 one boy named michael 1 girl named (not sure) .. and the boy is older
Describe Your Dream Wedding: very BIG.. lots of people/flowers. big church. too much to say.. but everything is MY way
Where You Want To Go To College:  ASU all the way
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up: Lawyer
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit: Russia